anonymous
2016-05-19 16:38:16 UTC
I constantly feel as though the government is controlling the world around me and nobody else is real. I'm worried that I might be at risk of myself at times because of this.
One part of me is being rational and telling me that this is some kind of mental issue that I need to tell somebody about.
But the other, more main part of me is scared to tell anybody because what if I tell and they let the government know that I'm onto it? What if they work for the government and they try to drug me or delude me? I'm too scared to "just tell somebody," so answers like that will not be helpful to me.
I guess I just want somebody to elaborate a little bit. What would you do in this situation, where you felt as though you couldn't tell anybody about a problem you also knew you might need help for? I'm really worried about myself, but I'm scared and can't tell ANYBODY.
Has anybody you know dealt with feelings like this? How did they get through it?
I don't know if I want treatment because I'm scared that this isn't real, but I've studied mental illnesses before and am certain that if this is real, this is some kind of issue. I'm completely torn into silence; I want to get help, but I'm too scared to ever tell anybody.