Question:
Feeling hopeless worthless and depressed...?
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2018-12-14 02:42:18 UTC
Hey, I’m 19, have an amazing life, am living my dreams right now (going to my dream school and dream sorority, dream major, dream city, amazing friends)... etc. but every single day I feel something different but some type of pain. I don’t have anyone to talk to about any of this and nobody understands. I have everything I’ve ever wanted and more. I worked so hard to be where I am and my life is falling the f*ck apart. I’m just depressed and cry that I want to die everyday. This year my grandmother died, my father had advanced throat cancer and lost all his strength, ability to eat or speak. My boyfriend of 4 years left me and treats me like im worthless and makes my depression even worse. I’ve made mistakes too but he denies all of his and his actions rippled to cause mine. I’ve been depressed about thah too. I feel so worthless to everyone and everything in this world. I feel like bad things keep happening to me. I feel like I just want to be done. And be dead.. and that if I stay alive things won’t ger better. I’ve felt this way since high school. Depressed lonely like the world is after me. Alone. I have everything I’ve ever wanted. Some days I go through euphoric and I mean HIGH euphoric feelings like I can’t be stopped but it’s just for a few hours and I’m depressed and low again. Honestly I don’t even need advice if nobody has any, I just needed to talk..
Four answers:
anonymous
2019-03-07 19:34:16 UTC
Gov't is killing you with high frequency electricity.Theotokos Virgin Mary gave prayers to "Schema-nun Antonia" on how to save aborted babies from hell. If you pray these prayers diligently, aborted babies are released from hell. On each painted nail there are 40 demons. Smoking is censer to the devil.Using foul language calls upon Pagan deities (aka demons); Holy Spirit departs on 7 meters. People who use drugs see demons who cleverly disguise themselves as ghosts and aliens.America will be last country to switch to Euro (antichrist's world currency). Contraceptives = abortion;using contraceptives for 1 year = 5 aborted kids.Miscarriages happen because of high heels; cesarean because of tight pants (second generation cesarean will be infertile).Unbaptized aborted/miscarried/unborn babies burn in hell for until Final Judgement; if pregnant, keep the kid and deliver at home because kids are chipped using IVs and vaccines in hospitals. Dentists and doctors chip patients secretly. Ultrasound leads to mark of the beast; don't do ultrasound, please. Abortion leads to breast cancer; a demon is released from hell for each aborted kid. Dogs can become possessed; don't keep dogs inside your home [Pelageya of Ryazan]. Walmart has technology to administer mark of the beast to those who have cat bacteria in their stomachs; stay away from cats [Athanasius III of Constantinople]. Next false flag is the Statue of Liberty. Above earth there is ice (hemisphere); when rockets go up they bring ice down from upper sky to lower sky; ice stuck in lower sky will fall on us during Apocalypse. Earth is flat; earth stands on 3 pillars (the Most Holy Trinity); pillars stand on water at zero Kelvin; underneath this ice there is a bubble; and then the abyss. Zodiac is planetary prison of demons; don't believe in horoscopes or you'll exhibit the traits of the trapped demons. Most thoughts and dreams are from demons; demons never do good. Sleep fully clothed; pray the Jesus prayer. Pray to your guardian angel to have normal sleep. Vyacheslav Krasheninnikov was the last prophet before Apostle John (who wrote the Book of Revelation), Enoch, Elijah, resurrected Seraphim of Sarov, and resurrected Sergius of Radonezh will preach against the antichrist. Humans were created about 7525 years ago. Birds participate in time creation. It's a sin to kill birds. Dinosaurs live under our level; they will get out through sinkholes and lakes; to kill them, go for their nerves. Save the birds; but kill the dinosaurs. First dinosaur will come out of Volga River in Russia. Scientists don't see dinosaurs under our level because of radiation. Sinkholes happen because people dig for resources underground and because earth is heating up. Demons grow human skin (from a sample taken during abduction) and put it on so as to look like us. Demons will invite people to be healed inside their UFOs; those who go will be like zombies after. Gov't provides demons with diamonds and allows demons to abduct people. If you're being abducted, slowly pray the Jesus prayer. Don't panic. Demons use diamonds and souls to power their UFO craft. The bigger the diamond, the more it lasts. Demons have 4 UFO bases: 1)moon 2)inside fake mountain Kailash (Tibet) 3)in lake Baikal in Russia 4)in Atlantis which is underneath double ocean floor of Mariana Trench (Pacific Ocean). There are no aliens. Nobody lives on other planets. Airplanes that go down are hit by demons because they need the airspace to fight Jesus. Antichrist is pale with red eyes. He's possessed by Satan since he's 12 years old [Lavrentiy Chernigovskiy]. He flies super fast; deceived people will say: "Christ is here; Christ is there" when he's flying from one city to the next very fast. He wears gloves to hide long nails. He's surrounded by demons who appear as angels of light. Antichrist will trick people that he can do mountain moving and resurrection using holograms/hypnosis; fire from the sky is real because of pollution gases in the atmosphere. Antichrist will have food only for 6 months; then he will feed his 666ed people flour from mashed up turtles (Tavrion Batozskiy), but this won't be enough because 666ed people are 10 times as angry and 7 times as hungry as normal people even though 666ed people became shorter (3-4 feet tall = 80 - 120 cm) because nanochips do function of organs (organs diminish) [Nilus Myrrhgusher]. If you have a lot of nanochips in your forearm, then you will not be able to make proper Orthodox sign of the cross (last mercy for you will be to cut your forearm off). Nanochips are sprayed by the gov't using chemtrails; they're also in gov't food and medicine; so, eat food from your own garden. In case garden is destroyed by ice from the sky, have chickens for eggs and goats for milk (Paisios). Lipstick contains cells of aborted fetuses, dog fat, and placenta; human flesh is in McDonalds, Pepsi, toothpaste, antiaging, anticancer, vaccines, perfume, etc.; that's why you should not be using anything that modern society has to offer. You're better off hiding within a 10-12 people group in order to escape Apocalypse. During Apocalypse, Chrtistians will eat dirt from under pussywillowtree as it's filled with tears of Theotokos Virgin Mary; this water will flee if a 666ed person tries to get it. Barcode is Druid black magic curse; QRcode is Mayan curse; when food is scanned, it becomes dead because laser is a substance from demons. Don't go into a UFO to be healed by demons. Green 666 is given by isotope rays on wrist or forehead when people stretch hands to receive small plastic grey card with no name on it (World Passport). It doesn't just have to be during this procedure (could be anything you sign up for or anywhere where there is a secret scanner); biometrics (fingerprints, eyes scan) or getting picture for passport are very dangerous because they could mark you secretly. Gabriel Urgebadze said that they do it on index finger when they scan your finger. Basically, try to avoid new documents at all cost. Police will microchip and isotope ray people on highways. Chipped people will be influenced by computers to take grey plastic card; but when they do, green mark by isotope rays is given on forehead/wrist. Food stores will isotope ray people too. Antichrist will also release prisoners to mark people. Reject 666 at all cost because it leads to permanent hell. If you're about to be marked, pray the Jesus prayer. Hide with Orthodox Christians to escape 666; leave all electronics behind so that antichrist's minions can't track you; burn documents because they're from Satan. The Most Holy Trinity gives you a name during baptism; devil gives an antiname during antibaptism (ex. Social Security Number). People who die with these Satanic documents go to concentration camp in hell to await Final Judgement; once the BEAST Computer is burned down, souls will be released for Final Judgement. That's why you should give back documents of your deceased relatives back to the gov't so that the gov't cancels these digital antichristian names given during antibaptism by the beast system; or just burn these documents because gov't could get upset and could send demons to mark you because of this outright act of defiance. Prophecy from half a millenium ago describes Final Judgement like this: Jesus was very upset with people who had little boards (plastic cards) in their hands because they wanted discount from the antichrist. Give to charity in the name of Archangel Michael; he rescues people from temporary hell twice a year [at midnight September 18-19 and similarly on November 20-21; pray at these times on your knees remembering the deceased by names (adding "and relatives by flesh up to Adam") so that they are rescued if they're in hell] (or brings them up a level, that is, to a level with less punishment; eventually, people are freed). Feed the pigeons; when pigeons bow down, people are saved from temporary hell. It's a big sin to remember the dead with wreaths (because demons put these wreaths on their necks if they're in hell with their hands tied up behind their back while hanging by their hands), meat, alcohol, sweets, and worldly music. Demons print icons of saints in newspapers so that you throw these newspapers in the trash blaspheming these saints. Crosses on soles of shoes and back of pants are blasphemy. Demons make carpets with crosses and put them on sidewalks so that people walk on crosses. Playing cards mock how Jesus suffered on the cross: clubs (cross on which Jesus was crucified), diamonds (four nails Jesus was crucified with), hearts (sponge with vinegar that Jesus was given to drink),spades (spear with which Jesus was pierced).Cremation is devil worship; only blasphemers such as Lenin should be burned; if Lenin is buried, earth will be polluted, and China will attack Russia because of this.After China attacks Russia, Ruski Orthodox Tsar (shown by resurrected Seraphim of Sarov) will come to power in Russia;this Tsar will slay traitors inside church and gov't; as a result, Russia will be the only country not under the antichrist.Ecumenism = 263 heresies;each heresy leads to hell. In 2006 in Moscow (that's why Moscow will sink),representatives from most religions signed a document where it says that all religions worship the same Supreme Being [aka the devil]. Priests who participate in ecumenism will have Pagans walking on their heads in hell. Arkhimandrite Antonin Kapustin left a prophecy that Church of All Russian Saints in Gorny Monastery, Ein Karem, Israel will be blessed by forerunner of antichrist; Patriarch Kirill of Russia and Mark of Berlin blessed this church in 2007. When priests pray for current gov't (instead of praying for future Tsar),Jesus gets up from His throne and turns His back to them. Forgive me.
Care411
2018-12-16 03:52:43 UTC
"Bad Things Keep Happening"

Delusional: BPD/Schizophrenic

" Depressed lonely like the world is after me"

Same as above



I feel so worthless to everyone and everything in this world.

Poetic and beautiful description of BPD



"I’m just depressed and cry that I want to die everyday".

BPD or nothing



"I’ve felt this way since high school."

Hmm? Not longer are you sure? That makes is chronic, though still makes less sense



"Some days I go through euphoric and I mean HIGH euphoric feelings like"

You made this up, the whole thing is a troll or? 2 things do not fit.



Concurrent "BiP" wtth BPD is possible. Though you would have known much earlier about problems. Realistically your whole life.



There is really no advice anyhow. You are being a sensationalist venter which is fine. Or its kind of real and your lying. You used language which was pretty cool and suggestive of specific things.



What do you want to talk about? No matter what it is or whats wrong you have to live until you are 85. Figure this might start going away about 65. Often people are pretty happy until 60 +. So you haven't even lived 1/2 your life yet. So f*ck - you are going to be wrecked huh?



Talking to someone is really good. Someone who kind of gets it. Usually a best friend is bad - too much emotion. But someone to listen.... do that. :o
Kyle
2018-12-14 02:48:51 UTC
you had a boyfriend when you were 15? hopefully he was too, otherwise if he was older, that's illegal.



with that said, you should speak with a counselor at your college. they should have resources to help with students having stress, or other mental issues from home life, etc. you need to talk to a professional therapist. it's nothing to be ashamed about, they are there to help people. but you won't get it if you don't ask for it. be brave, ask for it. maybe bring a close friend with you for support if you need it.



maybe you're also focusing on your self too much. you're in school. maybe see if they partner with charity organizations and do some volunteer work. when you help others less fortunate than you, or cant help themselves, it always puts your own life in perspective, and you appreciate things more. do this on your own, or bring a friend with you. otherwise, just look around in your neighborhood of organizations in the area and do some charity work on your own.
anonymous
2018-12-14 02:46:57 UTC
See. A. Therapist.



You may be suffering from clinical depression, but even if you're not, you need therapy to understand that life isn't perfect and isn't supposed to BE perfect. At your age, emotional ups and down are quite normal, and you simply have to learn to cope. This is life. Bad things happen, good things happen, nothing is ever perfect and fabulous forever; nothing is ever terrible forever.



You're still trying to grow up and come to grips with life as it is. Emotional ups and downs, mood swings, are par for the course for both men and women. That is the way it's supposed to be. If you can't cope, get professional help. Otherwise, just live with it all. Most people do.


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