Sorry for my bad english, this is my first response in this lenguage.
Why you want to die?
Search a hope, search a boyfriend, search love, search music for your soul. Perhaps you aren´t search anything, if you´ll begin to search something or somebody... you´ll can forgot your feels about suicide or die.
I remember an old, very old song from a group called Queen (yes, the singer was Freddie Mercury), and when I was depressed, I sing it.
It said something as:
Don't try suicide
Nobody's worth it
Don't try suicide
Nobody cares
Don't try suicide
You're just gonna hate it
Don't try suicide
Nobody gives a damn
You need help
Look at yourself you need help (yeah, yeah)
You need life
So don't hang yourself
It's okay, okay, okay, okay
You just can't be a prick teaser all of the time
A little bit attention—you got it
Need some affection—you got it
Suicide suicide suicide bid
Suicide suicide suicide bid
Suicide
And, look at me, my life isn´t very good, isn´t very happy... but, well, eeeerrr... I am here, sometimes I think that I want to die before turning the 40 years (of course, it´s lack a pile of time), but I´m searching, I continue searching a liitle, very little hope.
I remember other song... from my country... when I was a teen... from a group called "Git", (it is pronounced "hit" in your lenguage), if you wanna search a hope... pleaseeee... translate it.
It´s very stupid the lyrics, ok... hahaha... but It´s sweet. I modified it to facilite you the translation, because the are written in a spanish modism of my country.
No hieras mi corazón (Don´t hurt my heart)
Oh nena,
no hieras mi corazon
Cerca suenan
ecos de un tiempo mejor
Si tu quieres te voy a buscar
si me dejas te puedo encontrar
pero nena,
no hieras mi corazon
Tal vez yo pueda enseñarte a sonreir
tal vez nunca tu puedas dejar de sufrir...
Si las cosas estan algo mal
aca yo estoy, te puedo ayudar
pero nena,
no hieras mi corazon
Todo sigue dando vueltas
entre tu y yo
todo parece que si, a veces no
una cosa de ese dia
de que sirve hoy
si ya no puedo
Si tu quieres (quieres)
yo te voy a buscar (voy a buscar)
si me dejas (dejas)
te puedo encontrar (puedo encontrar)
pero nena (nena)
no hieras mi corazon
Bye and be happyyyyy !!!!!