I was diagnosed in March with this disorder. I don't completely understand it. I still hear and see things, I also very paranoid, but I have drastic mood swings when I'm not on medication. I was on Geodon, but I started having really bad heart beats because of it and my doctor took me off. So then she started me on Abilify. It took a couple of days for it to work for the hallucinations, but they finally stopped. But my mood swings have not changed at all. Right now I am so depressed that I thought about comitting suicide. I mean the week before I was doing okay, but the week before that I was so depressed that my doctor was really concerned that I was going to kill myself. This is not me. Work keeps me from going to therapy lately. But it is so hard dealing with the mood swings. I have been sent home from work because of it. It makes everyday so difficult, everything is a task. I just wanted to know if there is anything that any of you all do. Please help me understand my condition.