Question about depression?

Question

For the past 6 months my life has been heading downhill, all I seem to want to do these days is stay in my room and I never go out. I don't have many friends, they have all moved away. My 3 closest friends are all suicidal, 2 living out of state and 1 in my suburb. I have spent the last few months trying to talk them all out of killing themselves and spent too many hours in the hospital with the one living here. I have even nicknamed myself "suicide magnet", it's just like I attract it, I can't escape it. Everything seems to be mounting up and the worry has really gotten to me. I have been close to have an eating disorder and a while back started drinking to solve things which didn't really help. It seems I have been dragged down with them but I cant not help because I love them all. Things have been really bad lately, I feel so alone and worthless. I've been cutting for a while but nothing life threatening. Then last week I tried to suffocate myself and I ran across a highway. Only 3 people know about these things but none live here. I refuse to talk to anyone because that means my mum finds out and I don't have the best relationship with her (she's very judgemental.) I don't want to feel this way but it seems things just keep getting worse day by day. I don't want to admit to myself that I have depression because I need to be strong for my friends. What can I do to help myself without talking to anyone? Any advice would be great thanks.

Answer 1

I can't answer everything, but I think you need to consider why you're surrounding yourself with these people and what effect their instability could have on you. It is not your job to take care of everyone else (a lesson I'm still learning).



You don't have to cut your friends off, but you do need to set limits and boundaries. You can be supportive and encouraging, but you cannot solve their problems and they cannot come to you for solutions.



You need to seek counseling of some sort, because it sounds like your home life is too unstable for you to get support there. Is there an option with your school or can you give mom enough details to get some help without the criticism? Put it in terms of school and motivation rather than depression and suicide, maybe?



It's hard to see the point of life when you can't find value in it...if you can't get into counseling, try and find a positive outlet to put life in perspective. Helping the APL walk dogs takes 30 minutes a week but can bring a lot of clarity.



Hold tight, sweety, and try to build strong relationships that build you up rather than pull you down.

Answer 2

It looks you are very tired of life . safariing depression,

Do meditation on your own

When: Whenever you are sitting with nothing to do.



Step 1: Breathe From the Mouth

“Relax the lower jaw and let your mouth open just slightly. Start breathing from the mouth, but not deeply. Just let the body breathe so it becomes more and more shallow. And when you feel that the breath has become very shallow and your mouth is open and jaw relaxed, your whole body will feel very relaxed.



Step 2: Feel a Smile

“In that moment, start feeling a smile — not on your face but all over your being — and you will be able to. It is not a smile that comes on the lips; it is an existential smile that spreads just inside. Try and you will know what it is, because it cannot be explained. No need to smile with your lips on your face but just as if you are smiling from the belly, the belly is smiling.

“And it is a smile, not a laugh, so it is very very soft, delicate, fragile — like a small rose opening in the belly and the fragrance spreading all over the body.



“Once you have known what this smile is, you can remain happy for twenty-four hours a day. And whenever you feel that you are missing that happiness, just close your eyes and catch hold of that smile again, and it will be there. In the daytime as many times as you want, you can catch hold of it. It is always there.”

Answer 3

Hey there Im sorry you have been feeling like this. I am not sure if you are believer in Jesus Christ. But I know that he cares for you and doesn’t want you to feel down. He wants you to have a wonderful life and he has better days ahead for you. He came so that you could live life to the full. Turn to him he already has the solutions to all your problems make him your lord and Saviour and he will take a big load of you and restore all your joy and peace in your heart. Just go to him surrender everything to him he will never leave you or forsake you. You can always come to him. You are his child and he loves you so much you are the apple of his eye. He is an awesome God. And he is not judgmental but he is the complete expression of love. He will give you the strength and he will help you overcome anything that is getting in your way. And help you move to the better life he has in store for you. Just ask him to be your lord and Saviour he will change your life like no one has ever done he will change your life. I will be praying for you God bless.



these are some verse from the bible please read this God bless





My Child,



You may not know me,

but I know everything about you.

Psalm 139:1



I know when you sit down and when you rise up.

Psalm 139:2



I am familiar with all your ways.

Psalm 139:3



Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.

Matthew 10:29-31



For you were made in my image.

Genesis 1:27



In me you live and move and have your being.

Acts 17:28



For you are my offspring.

Acts 17:28



I knew you even before you were conceived.

Jeremiah 1:4-5



I chose you when I planned creation.

Ephesians 1:11-12



You were not a mistake,

for all your days are written in my book.

Psalm 139:15-16



I determined the exact time of your birth

and where you would live.

Acts 17:26



You are fearfully and wonderfully made.

Psalm 139:14



I knit you together in your mother's womb.

Psalm 139:13



And brought you forth on the day you were born.

Psalm 71:6



I have been misrepresented

by those who don't know me.

John 8:41-44



I am not distant and angry,

but am the complete expression of love.

1 John 4:16



And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.

1 John 3:1



Simply because you are my child

and I am your Father.

1 John 3:1



I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.

Matthew 7:11



For I am the perfect father.

Matthew 5:48



Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.

James 1:17



For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.

Matthew 6:31-33



My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.

Jeremiah 29:11



Because I love you with an everlasting love.

Jeremiah 31:3



My thoughts toward you are countless

as the sand on the seashore.

Psalms 139:17-18



And I rejoice over you with singing.

Zephaniah 3:17



I will never stop doing good to you.

Jeremiah 32:40



For you are my treasured possession.

Exodus 19:5



I desire to establish you

with all my heart and all my soul.

Jeremiah 32:41



And I want to show you great and marvelous things.

Jeremiah 33:3



If you seek me with all your heart,

you will find me.

Deuteronomy 4:29



Delight in me and I will give you

the desires of your heart.

Psalm 37:4



For it is I who gave you those desires.

Philippians 2:13



I am able to do more for you

than you could possibly imagine.

Ephesians 3:20



For I am your greatest encourager.

2 Thessalonians 2:16-17



I am also the Father who comforts you

in all your troubles.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4



When you are brokenhearted,

I am close to you.

Psalm 34:18



As a shepherd carries a lamb,

I have carried you close to my heart.

Isaiah 40:11



One day I will wipe away

every tear from your eyes.

Revelation 21:3-4



And I'll take away all the pain

you have suffered on this earth.

Revelation 21:3-4



I am your Father, and I love you

even as I love my son, Jesus.

John 17:23



For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.

John 17:26



He is the exact representation of my being.

Hebrews 1:3



He came to demonstrate that I am for you,

not against you.

Romans 8:31



And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.

2 Corinthians 5:18-19



Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.

2 Corinthians 5:18-19



His death was the ultimate expression

of my love for you.

1 John 4:10



I gave up everything I loved

that I might gain your love.

Romans 8:31-32



If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,

you receive me.

1 John 2:23



And nothing will ever separate you

from my love again.

Romans 8:38-39



Come home and I'll throw the biggest party

heaven has ever seen.

Luke 15:7



I have always been Father,

and will always be Father.

Ephesians 3:14-15



My question is…

Will you be my child?

John 1:12-13



I am waiting for you.

Luke 15:11-32

Answer 4

There's no way this world would be better off with out you in it. Please stay.