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2011-12-20 20:44:05 UTC
Recently, I have lost some weight. 40 pounds in 2 months. I worked hard this summer to lose the weight. I used to be overweight and after loosing that much, I started feeling a lot more self-confident. This feeling hasn't changed; However, I am unable apply this same effort and commitment to school and other parts of my life. I also have a lot of bottled up energy(or so I think). I usually deal with this extra energy with random noises. Sometimes these happen by habit(not uncontrollably but like how a nose picker picks their nose without really knowing that they are doing it) when I am really excited. This happens quite often(by habit and by choice).
I talked about this with a good friend of mine(he actually has AD-HD), who I have been good friends with for 7+ years, and he thought my situation reflected his ordeal(having AD-HD) very closely. He gave me one of his pills he takes(Vyvanse) and said that I should consider giving it a try to see if it help me. I figured I had nothing to lose so I took it this morning. It kicked in after about an hour, and oh my God! I felt calm, relaxed, and I was focused. I usually yawn, move around in my seat, and find myself staring down the clock with hate while I'm in my AP history class. I have gotten high before and this pill did not make me feel that way(for all those who say that I was high or some stupid crap). For the first time, I felt like I was absorbing everything my teacher was saying. I had no urges to make release any bursts of energy and I didn't feel like moving around in my seat. I felt like I was participating for the rest of the school day. I actually felt like learning and studying for once(and I did by the way!)! Now this might seem crazy after one pill but I seriously feel like it helped. I felt safe and rested as well. I was able to concentrate in my math class like never before. Things came to me quicker and I just felt like I mattered.
So by now you are probably passed out on your keyboard. If not, let me ask it again, is it possible I could have ADD or AD-HD? Fyi, I am currently 16 years old, have a family history of alcoholism and depression, and have a personal history of anxiety issues.