Confused! Am i Bipolar?!?

Question

okay so im going to start off my saying my mom passed away a year ago, and at first i guess i denied everything and was perfectly fine. but now its really hitting me. sometimes ill sit alone and start to feel really sad, ill have this feeling of emptiness for no reason what so ever, ill just feel really anxious and scared? sometimes when theres something i dont like (even stupid little things) i get really angry and i start punching and kicking and throwing anything in my way ill scream and cry and just hate everything

my sister found out i smoked some weed and when she confronted me, my heart started racing and i got so extremely angry and i started screaming and crying and slamming my closet door and kicking my walls.
sometimes ill just get really angry at my dad for no reason and ill push him away , and ill just hate if he touches me or tries to hug/kiss me.

ill go from being soo angry and drepressed, then i'll be perfectly fine a couple hours later

i also cut myself sometimes for no reason, ill just want to cut?
i han't done it in a while, but just recently i did because i was mad at my dad for a stupid reason.

i have no idea if im just an oover dramaticteenager but i hate the way i treat my family and the way i act and it really bugs me

Answer 1

I'm sorry for your loss.



The emotional turmoil you're experiencing may, in fact, be due to grief. It's definitely a difficult thing to go through, especially as a teenager. Even a year later, you can be going through the emotional stages. It's a pain that really doesn't truly go away.



Don't classify yourself with a disorder too soon. You could have cyclothymia, bipolar, or borderline, just based on what you've written. However, you may not have anything, and honestly just be going through a really difficult time. Grief and teenage life can do strange things to one's psyche.



Just don't peg yourself with a mental disorder that will stick to you for the rest of your life. It's not pretty, and it just stands to fuel people's ignorance, especially if you're misdiagnosed.



The best suggestion I have for the time being, would be to keep a journal of some sort, but make it honest. Even if it's a sentence or two on how you're feeling through the day. It doesn't have to be a masterpiece. It may seem like an odd suggestion, but the reason I recommend it would be for a couple reasons:



For starters, it'll help you keep track of your emotional state, and what you're thinking during this time. It may help you, and possibly anyone trying to help you, a better understanding of what you're thinking while you're sad/angry/happy/etc. Sometimes it helps to read back and see patterns of what you were thinking during these times, even if it just gives you a better understanding.



Some people also say that a journal is very cathartic and a good release of emotion. Of course, that's personal preference.



If you, at any point, feel calm enough to do so, talk to your family and possibly explain that you're not feeling the best and if you're sorry, say you are. It may not fix how you feel, but it will at least give them a bit of insight and let them feel a bit better.



The only other suggestion I have for the future, is to talk to a counsellor or helpline or some sort. Sometimes confiding in friends is difficult, but confiding in strangers can be easy. If you feel like you're endangering yourself or others with your actions, I would suggest seeking help immediately. The cutting may not be life-threatening, but is definitely an issue that shouldn't be ignored. If it worsens or gets more frequent, seek help.



I wish you good mental health, and hope things work out for you, one way or another.

Answer 2

If you are truly having difficulty (which it sounds like you are) you need to seek professional help for a proper diagnosis. However, I will say that this does not sound like bipolar disorder.

Bipolar disorder consists of manic episodes and depressive episodes that last longer than just a couple of hours.

I am not trying to minimize your problems, though. You may be suffering from something else (ie. depression).

Do speak to your doctor about seeing a therapist and you will get more definitive answers.

Answer 3

Manic depressive disease is the place somebody has classes of mania or racing ideas and moved quickly pastime, wanting to do something each and every of the time. Then they're going to crash and grow to be very remoted and depressed for a time. various human beings i know with this disease turn to drugs or alcohol to lead them to sense "time-honored" or on a good playing container. if that's the case it somewhat is totally not common. Get him right into a good therapist and attempt to be supportive yet corporation.

Answer 4

Over dramatic teenager. Bipolar moods don;t change that fast, they last for many weeks or months and are more involved then just emotional changes.



Everyone has moods like those of Bipolar Disorder....... because everyone has mood swings, momentary loss of judgment, likes to go shopping, likes sex, feels down sometimes, gets angry now and then and is hyper on occasion. The difference is that all of these symptoms in Bipolar are so intense that they interfere with your ability to function. Think of a pole (biPOLEr) with 0 at the center (0 being normal) and 10 at one end (manic) and -10 at the other (deep depression). Most people have swings but stay within 3 to -3. I have fairly severe Bipolar 1 but since my psychosis is mild I go from -9 to 9.... Also depression that comes and goes is not bipolar but just recurring depression, you have to have mania for it to be Bipolar..... you have to go to both ends of the pole.



Rapidly changing emotions or becoming angry or sad easily is not all there is to Bipolar. That is just having emotions. People with Bipolar Disorder do not just change emotions quickly, they go through periods of depression followed by periods of mania or elevated mood. Mood affects everything about you.... your energy level, self esteem, sleep patterns, appetite, sexuality, emotional response, judgment, etc..... not just your emotions. And while rapid cycling is possible, it is rare. The average person with Bipolar only cycles two or three times a year and the moods last for weeks or months. It is considered rapid cycling if they cycle 4 or more times in a year.



While everyone with Bipolar has a different set of symptoms and a different severity of symptoms, this is what Bipolar is like for me:



Depression - too tired to get out of bed, shower, even to brush my teeth. Cry all the time, sleep 16 hours a day. Feelings of self loathing and guilt that drive me to think of suicide but I'm to tired to even think about how to go about killing myself. It makes you feel small and worthless and completely insignificant. It makes you think about how big the world is and how meaningless you are in it..... and it refuses to let you have any good thoughts or see any good things.... when you look in the mirror all you see is pain, you don't even see yourself, you don't taste your favorite foods anymore, see that flowers are blooming, whether or not the sun is out, you become so inward that you hardly even notice your surroundings..... You don't even feel love for people anymore.... positive thoughts are just not possible...... it is a deep dark hole with no way out and no light for hope.... and most of all it makes you feel sooooo alone. And even if there were someone who cared about you they would be better off if you killed yourself....... because all you will ever be is a burden....... this can last from a couple of weeks to a couple of years.



Mania - Way too happy! PARTY GIRL! love drink and drugs. Talk really fast and pressured because my thoughts are going faster than my mouth can keep up with. Hypersexual - like I sleep with strangers and guys I just met on the internet or I masturbate 10 times a day. I once became bisexual because there were twice as many people to sleep with. down load porn and spend tons of money on sex toys. Spending sprees..... I once spent my mortgage money on african violets, yep, $1500 on African violets (then I got depressed and let them all die). Quit my job because I wanted my vacation pay for lottery tickets and I was so convinced I would win that I started shopping and writing bad checks because I'd be rich as soon as the numbers were drawn. Decided that I could replace the furnace in my home by myself... I mean how hard can it be..... Only sleep 2 or maybe 3 hours a night for months on end and never feel tired. In the end I was unemployed, $30,000 in debt, and had almost lost my home, which needed a new furnace because I had removed the old one.. or parts of it anyway. This can last for months.



I also have mixed states when I am depressed and manic at the same time which are truly the worst... By body and mind are depressed but there is this undercurrent of energy running all the time..... I'm highly emotional but the emotions tend to be negative (guilt and anger) I have intrusive thoughts and urges to mutilate myself (like wanting to stick my hands in the garbage disposal or cooking them on the BBQ), and I also have psychotic episodes where I hallucinate. This is when I am most suseptible to suicide because I am depressed, wanting to hurt myself, and I have the mental energy to plan and carry it out

Answer 5

Let me be the first to answer you might have Emma-Tidus