Jesus loves all people and especially sinners,
Only Jesus is fit to judge as only he knows our temperaments that draw us to certain sins, the enviromental influences on us, and out mental state and motivations. People do not know all this so they are not to be judges,.
Jesus provided an answer to this.
The bible says all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of god and there is none holy (and worthy of heaven) no not one.
He also says we are saved by faith not works lest any should boast and he says the wages of sin is death
Jesus already paid the price for every sin we will and have ever done. the wages of our sins is death but Jesus took our punishment suffering t and death upon him out of his great love for sinners
He saved every person who will ever live and our part is only to believe and accept he is the only way to heaven not our good deeds.
there will be two judgements on judgment day- one under the law and one under grace.
the only sin he cannot forgive is those people who will not believe he already saved them for it is like someone willing to pay one's jail bond but they refuse to accept it in that case, they cannot be saved and if there sins are big or small they will be cast into hell.The last thing Jesus yelled form the cross is a word used at that time on prisoners who had served their time and it was stamped over their list of crimes and it meant paid in full. Also used for people who poaid off minitary debts.
If again accused of the same crime all they had to do was show this paper that the debt wa spaid and they could npot be charged with it again,,.no double jeopardy,
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when he did and rose it was all paid in full (that is their punishment) for every man and every sin which Jesus took upon himself to save us..we only have to take the gift an keep knowing we can and are saved one we do
The other judgment under grace will be for those who accepted Jesus and what he did for them. Never stop believing those sins are already paid for by our lord who will not let us slip from his grasp.
Yes at times we will have doubts like I did when recently told I am dying of cancer but he says when we are too weak to have faith that he remains faithful to us.
Look up the sinners prayer and how to be saved.
The good news is that we can be saved and not have to pay the price in hell. maybe karma might come to us to teach us but we can be assured of heaven even if we sin.
Even though you think things are true like you are both demons this is not so.
We might not be able to change as easily as someone with out mental problems but we can all do some change,
Pray to God for help..he does help even though we dont always see it right away..trust him turn everything over to him and believe he will help you..
anger breaks down our immune system and leads to disease so thi and any hate is hurting you more than others.
Forgiveness is very important to healing. forgive people and if any justice is due leave it to God. Ask forgiveness to God for the torture you did to animals and then forgive yourself.
There is hope and it begins with accepting what Jesus did for you.
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how to help yourself
The wrong fats can change our brain chemistry and leads to chemical imbalances and various mental illnesses many that have been fised with more omega three fats and less omega 6 dats according to a book I read a schizophrenic started not acting schizophrenic when the fish oil was added and they then looked on a pet scan and his brain had actually changed to resemble a normal bnrain and the same has happened with a myriad of mental illnesses cannot promise change but if it was me I would work hard on this.
Basically the fats lead to the neurotransmitters receptor sites being able to jump form neuron to neuron and the neurotransmitters get stuck in the synaptic gap and cause chemical imbalances as one changed the fats they eat eventually the neurotransmitters receptor sites go back to working normally and this helps tremendously Cannot promise a change but certainly worth a ty as it has worked for others with mental illness.
I would take 5000 mg or more o omega three fatty acids found in fatty fish like salmon (only wild caught not farm raised) , mackerel (both canned and fresh), herring, sardines and anchovies or in foods like raw walnuts, chia seeds (salba), flax seeds (ground) and flax seed oil (stoe in the freezer.
The average americans eats 50 times more omega 6 fqts than oemga three when we should be eating twice as much omega 6 over omega three fats and this affects chemical imbalances,, it might take a few years
Stop eating
1 hydrogenated fats
2 trans fats
3 most saturated fats (eat more towards vegan)
4 most unsaturated fats.
chia seeds is a good source of omega 3 fats and a superfood one can make a tasty pudding by mixing chia seeds with a plant milk like almond or soy milk etc add chopped fruits and dry fruits and mix till gels garnish with things like kiwi and berries.
This can lower blood pressure though so keep eye on that
I would also incorporate only health real whole foods be eaten 9those good made) in a form as close to nature as possible not refined and lots of raw food--fruits veggies nuts and seeds and turning to a plant based diet
I owuld not b surprisedf if you changed to a 100% raw food vegan diet this would go away, I spoke directly with someone on the 801010 diet 100% raw who said she lost all cravings for the drugs and alcohol she wa s addcited to and that her whole temperment chnged for the better and she got very very noice and this is not the first time I heard those going 100% raw had their whole personality change to one of empathy, compassion, low stress, calm and happy.
here is what food is considered raw
http://www.edenwellness.org/hallelujahdiet.html scrool down to 85% part
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read these books and do the exercises in them
1 excuse me your life is waiting
2 feeling good
3 7 steps to emotional healing
4 happy for no reason
5 heal tour brain heal your life
surround yourself with good people and think on positive things.
If your girlfriend continues to say you are both demons I would get away from her if she wont try to change too.
I personally feel phycotrophic drugs of any kind are not safe but that is up to you.
I would try nutritional and behavior help along with counseling with the right counselor.
You must make serious effort to not be horrible to others. force yourself to change and do the right thing..stop saying I am horrible do positive affirmations like I can and am being nice to people. I am a peaceful person. I think positive thoughts I am a himan being I can change I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me you must stop thinking how you are as you are creating self fulfilling prophecy..you are not totally at the control of your mental illness. The mind is powerful change how you think and act and stop thinking you cant you can With affirmations dont use the words not dont say I am not sick as the mind reads I am sick instead say I am well etc
God can do what drs cant.