so im 17 and last week i was very drunk and some guy took me on the beach and we made out and i told him i didnt want to have sex because i am a virgin and at some point he tried to put his penis in my vagina and i said no a few times and he kept trying adn he penetrated me for like 5 seconds and it hurt and then i got up and went away. i felt disgusting and i was reallly anoyed so i went home and on the way a security guy (i was at a hotel) asked me if he could talk to me and he took my shorts off and started trying to lick me and he made out with me forcefully. the worse part is i did nothing to stop it i didnt realise what was happening. i cant sleep now im so annoyed at myself i cant get the imagfes out if my head im so scared. isit normal to feel this way? i keep thinking i could have run off both times and i can still feel it i cant think of anything else and i cant tell anyone waht should i do??