I am going to kill myself tomorrow and I just planned my suicide. I will no longer will be living in this hell. My best friend knows im going to commit suicide, so she threatening me to end her life if I end my life. Recently I had a fight with her and I told her "someday you will understand that I cannot be helped" and she said "fine". I apoligiesed for the fight but unusually she won't forgive me like she usually does and won't talk to me. Plus her abusive mum got involved and threatnen to go to the police for having a fight. My best friend isnt depressed because of me. She's depressed because her alcoholic mum abuses her and that she gets bullied. I will kill myself but I don't want her to kill herself if I kill myself. She has her boyfriend by her side, she doesn't need me, no one needs me. It's selfish when someone forces a suicidal person to live because they have been in pain for too long especially me. It's hard for me to live when things aren't getting better. They just getting worser. It's my life and I don't want anyone to interfere with my decisions. I know everyone wont care if I died and even though they do care, they will get over it. My best friend doesnt care about me because if she did care about me, she would stop ignoring me and forgive me. I really have to end my life. I just can't do this when I have problems that can't be fixed, like when I am not living with my mum because of neglect, that school is screwed up and that I lost someone I loved very much which I cannot get over. I don't want my best friend ending her life because of me and I don't want to be blamed if she kills herself. So, how can I kill myself without having her dead?