I'll just be straight with you: you acknowledge using 2 strong painkillers that work by unbalancing neurotransmitters. Depression is caused by an imbalance of certain neurotransmitters.
The one thing that works all the time is LDC (the link at the bottom explains). It's a long explanation, but the reason it works is because it restores balance to 4 neurotransmitters: dopamine, epinephrine norepinephrine, and serotonin. The word "natural" is outrageously misused, all the supplements and herbal bs might be natural to earth, but virtually none are natural to the body. LDC is natural to the body, it works naturally (naturally producing a reaction that naturally occurs in healthy ppl), and that's everything in a nutshell. OH, the bad news is LDC isn’t' for sale lol, it's a long story, again, explained by the link below. BUT I promise, the depression LDC customer reports will interest everyone.
The fact is - you can't be helped, even LDC won't help you because you are taking drugs that imbalance vital neurotransmitters. BUT, many of the withdrawal symptoms you’d experience if you stop using the drugs are caused by a severe imbalance of certain neurotransmitters. AND, if you use LDC, and balance them, you will not experience the abdominal pain OR the rushes of energy. You’d be able to quit cold turkey, and it would be easy. I’m sure if you are rich with a few million dollars, you might be able to find LDC. Anyway, hopefully the knowledge helps someone.